Numb Body and a Headache

My head is aching and feels a though it may burst
Yet, the rest of my body feels numb
As though it were dead
And I feel dead
The only feeling I have
Being one of worthlessness
And of being so very much alone
But this must be how it is to be the life of the party
Especially if it is a pity party
With me being the guest
The only guest
Feeling like dying
Or maybe already dead
The numbness of being alone
Having overtaken what is left of my sanity
With my head aching and feeling it is ready to burst