A Valentines Day Visit

Valentines Day
And I tried so hard
To make it special
Hoping to somehow
Touch your heart
Left to wonder if . . .
If you you could love me
And if you love me
Wondering so many things
Then you surprised me
Dropping by the office
With a big Valentines Day cookie
Visiting only a couple of minutes
And leaving me with a kiss
On my hungry lips
The first time you have kissed me
In many, many months
And my heart leaped!

A Positive Weekend

A pleasant weekend together
Out and about and an evernighter
Coupled with a day-trip over the mountain
And then back again to home
Getting along fine
Chatting
And laughing
On the surface
Enjoying the time
And each others company
Our weekend giving me hope
That we can pull together our life
And somehow rebuild love between us

In the Same Bed, But So Far Apart

We sleep in the same room
You and me together
Yet, we are so far apart
On different sides of the bed
So far apart are we
That we could be on opposite side of the world
And so I feel abandoned and all alone
My heart nearing the breaking point
Only surviving by hope and prayer
That the new day will bring a miracle
And you will once again love me . . .

My Sunshine and Your Clouds

For me this morning was beautiful
With blue skies and wisps of clouds
The day looked to be a positive one
Yet, mentioning it to be a sunny day
And I was greeted with criticism
For not being truthful about the day
But lately this seems to be the response
Regardless of what I do or say . . .
Still, I hang on to hope beyond hope
That maybe your heart will soften
And that you will find something in me
That is of redeemable worth and value
Maybe even a part of me you could love
And stand to live with and be around
But you say it isn't so and you want to go
Throwing our life together away . . .
All of this leaving me to wonder
Why you choose to criticize everything
I think, do, or say, even my thoughts
About my perception of a sunny day
Which leaves me feeling broken and alone
As you walk out the door to get away
To stew in your negativity
And plan your final exit . . .

Pillowtalk Remembered . . .

Last night we pillowtalked
And the bitterness flowed
As you dredged up the old
Leaving me sad and cold
And with little or no hope
That you will ever love me . . .
It is so sad how days of old
Are now just fleeting memories
When we would pillowtalk
Holding each other close
Gazing into each other's eyes
And we could feel the love . . .
I still remember those days
And those loving nights
When I could feel your love
As you held and touched me
And we whispered words of love
While through th night we pillowtalked . . .

A Cold Winter and a Cold Heart

The cold winds of winter are raging outside
Their only rival being your frigid heart
Which leaves me feeling both cold and alone
And wondering if the winter will ever end . . .
Yet, I continue to keep my hearts embers alive
Hoping beyond hope that just as the snow outside will thaw
That your heart will also forsake it's cold bitterness
And begin to thaw and feel warmness once again for me . . .