Lost

I am lost, totally lost
And I don't understand
As today has gone from one extreme
To another and then back again
And I find myself lost . . .
This morning if looks could kill
I would most certainly be dead
And yet, I have no idea or clue
To what set you off
So like I said, I find myself totally lost . . .
I ask what is wrong
Inquiring as to what I unknowingly did
To incur your silent wrath and disdain
But your response is an angry stare
And silence . . .
So here I am, lost
I'm not understanding anything
But trying to understand
If that be possible
So I try to find my way . . .
While you nap
I bake a great salmon dinner
And set a great table
Which you seem to enjoy
But don't say much . . .
Still, Im lost
But think that I can see
Maybe some daylight in your eyes
As I think you are really in a struggle
To either hate me or try to like me . . .
Hey, I may be lost
But I try to keep a positive attitude
You know, whistle while you work
Keep smiling and keep a stiff upper lip
And all that rot . . .
So I plod on through the day
Leaving a trail of psuedo bread crumbs
That you might choose to follow
Back to my arms and back into our marriage
As I keep trying to find my way . . .
The day and evening culminate in a great way
In form of a surprise party for you
To celebrate passing your professional exam
And you smile and laugh and enjoy the party
While I look on . . .
And as the day comes to a close
You thank me for all the work I have done
Over the past many days
Then you hug me and say goodnight
Leaving me lost as you put on your morning face
And I find myself in silence and lost once again . . .