My End to Sleepless Nights

Nighttime comes and I am ready to fall into bed
With a feeling beyond tired and nearly dead
But as the light goes off and I try to sleep
I lay there awake trying to count sheep
And while I lay there awake with you at my side
All I can think of is you as my wife and my bride
I lay there wondering if you really love me
Or if deep in your heart you wish you were free
Full of questions and self doubt I lay there awake
Quivering with fear that your love is just fake
But you lay there asleep oblivious to my fears
While I finally grow groggy as sleep for me nears
Yet even in sleep I am ravaged by pain
Caused by a fear of losing you and going insane
For me this is my vigil night after night
Praying for your love with all of my might
Wishing and praying to be part of your heart
Only knowing that I have loved you right from the start
So I hope that someday or maybe some night
You will take me in your arms holding me tight
And tell me that you love me
So I can finally sleep